me: | hey michele |
ShellyBell873: | hey |
me: | how are you |
ShellyBell873: | fine you? |
me: | i'm alright |
ShellyBell873: | that's good |
me: | yeah |
me: | had a rough day or two though. yesterday i realized it had been exactly a year since me and lauren lost our virginity to each other :| |
ShellyBell873: | i don't remember what day i lost my virginity |
me: | i just remembered because it was on our 3 month |
me: | and yesterday was what would have been our 15 month |
me: | and then today i just saw that he posted on her wall and that's just a little stab at me. |
ShellyBell873: | why? |
ShellyBell873: | all he said was to smile |
me: | i mean |
me: | i didn't mean he was taking a stab at me |
me: | but it hurt, just another reminder that they're basically with each other |
me: | and i'm just in this pain by myself. i don't want her to be in pain but i don't like feeling alone like i have this whole month, alone in my suffering through this |
ShellyBell873: | you'll be fine...i promise |
ShellyBell873: | just get through it the best you can |
ShellyBell873: | try to keep your head up |
me: | lord knows i'm trying |
me: | i'm failing |
ShellyBell873: | for a while you might |
me: | i can't stand to see them together |
me: | and i never will |
me: | and understand that no matter how good a guy you think he is, he knew exactly what he was doing this whole time, and he certainly was not "worried" about breaking us up |
me: | and he doesn't give a shit that he did and he's happy he did |
me: | btw make sure she knows not to ever let me see him/them in person |
ShellyBell873: | that's not right |
ShellyBell873: | you need to calm down about the eric situation |
ShellyBell873: | and leave it alone |
me: | what i'm saying in regards to his intentions is true |
me: | it really is naive to think otherwise |
ShellyBell873: | regardless, you're sounding a little crazy |
me: | god i'm not going to get violent |
ShellyBell873: | doesn't matter |
me: | yeah, it does |
me: | if i was going to get violent about it, that would obviously be bad and i would hope someone would stop me/calm me down |
me: | i'm not going to though |
ShellyBell873: | well you sound like you're on your way there so be careful |
me: | i'm not |
me: | pardon me being pissed at him |
ShellyBell873: | HE WAS NOT THE FUCKING REASON SHE BROKE UP WITH YOU |
ShellyBell873: | GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD |
me: | look |
me: | that doesn't matter |
ShellyBell873: | yes it does |
ShellyBell873: | b/c you keep blaming him |
ShellyBell873: | for your sadness |
ShellyBell873: | and pain |
me: | let me clarify |
ShellyBell873: | you can't hide how you feel but i'm saying you need to take a step back and look at things |
me: | i believe it that if things were fine between me and her this wouldn't have happened |
me: | i know |
me: | that being said |
me: | i am sick and tired of hearing how he had nothing but good intentions |
me: | and how he told her he was "worried" about coming between us |
me: | and how he has not been pressuring her |
me: | you realize everything he did and said was what she would want to hear |
me: | of course he wouldn't pressure her, that'd be fucking stupid |
me: | and of course he's going to sound apologetic for having feelings for her |
me: | but it's like this |
ShellyBell873: | all of those things don't matter at all |
me: | yes, they do |
ShellyBell873: | no they don't |
me: | i can guarantee you |
ShellyBell873: | b/c like i said |
me: | guarantee you |
me: | if i was his friend, he wouldn't have done this to me |
ShellyBell873: | he didn't do anything to you |
me: | and if you do something to another guy that you wouldn't do to your friend, it's a pretty shitty thing |
ShellyBell873: | he did nothing to you |
ShellyBell873: | nothing at all |
me: | he didn't stop talking to her or hanging out with her |
ShellyBell873: | why should he |
ShellyBell873: | they're friends |
me: | but it wasn't innocent to him |
me: | it never was |
ShellyBell873: | ok you need to stop |
ShellyBell873: | and think about what you're saying |
me: | you need to fucking understand |
me: | i have thought about it |
11/28/07
out of line?
I thought I was justified in what I was saying and she just didn't want to listen to me. She blocked me at the end, classic.
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